Sometimes I Forget

As strange as this may sound; sometimes I forget that I have cancer. Even typing it now feels like I’m trying to convince myself that it’s true. The initial diagnosis and the surgery almost feel like a dream now. I’m sure that if I started reading the blog from the beginning to end (which I sometimes do), it would feel real again. For now, life is pretty much back to normal, like the past 6 weeks never happened.

Last night we watched Extreme Makeover: Home Edition. At the beginning of the show they introduced the family and told the story of why this family were ideal candidates for a new home. It turns out that the father has cancer. They talked about how it was affecting all the family members and how he’s coping. Then it suddenly dawned on me that I have cancer. I immediately had this awkward feeling as we continued to watch the show. The only way I can describe it is to equate it to the feeling I’ve had ever since Andrew and Sean were born. Whenever I see TV shows or movies that focus on child abductions, I just can not watch them and always turn the channel. It’s kind of the same feeling watching shows on cancer, except that I don’t change the channel because I figure there is always something I can learn.

Today I went to the announcement for funding from the Canada Foundation for Innovation to support research at the university. Two of the doctors who received funding are researching how breast cancer cells spread throughout the body. There was a tour of their lab after the presentation that I wish I had gone to, but at the time I felt awkward because the attendees at the announcement were mainly the researchers and the press.

Well I’m off to watch the Apprentice to see if my pick in the pool (Andrea), can stick around for another week.

Talk to you later,

me