Security Blanket

Two more sleeps until my last chemo treatment. Although you would think this is an exciting time for me, I’m actually more anxious about this treatment than any other. For me the chemotherapy is like a security blanket, as long as the drugs keep doing their job, I feel safe. Without the drugs, I need to rely on my body’s defense system to keep me healthy. The scary thing is that 8 months ago, I was walking around feeling healthy but little did I know I had about 1 billion cancer cells in me (that’s the number of cancer cells the doctor said were in a tumor of my size – 1cm).

The other root of this anxiety comes from a solicitation letter from the Canadian Breast Cancer Foundation. The letter was written by a man who lost his wife to breast cancer. In a nutshell, his wife was diagnosed with breast cancer, had a year and a half of treatments then was told she was cancer free. Two months later they found that the cancer had spread to her liver and lungs then she died shortly there after. So, you just never know…be thankful for every day you have.

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